Im Alpine Paje Yason. Im 33 yrs old.. I was born in Camiguin Island, second smallest province in the Philippines. My parents are both Roman Catholic. I grew up with same religion as my parents. When i graduated college, since there are minimal job oppurtunities in the island, i decided to go to Laguna to find job. I stayed in my Aunt's (sister of my mother) house. She is a devoted Christian. She shared about salvation. And without deeper understanding, i just followed her in prayers believing that im already saved. I go to church with them in Pacita, San Pedro. After several months I decided to left my Aunt's house and rent a boarding house. I did not go to their church again but i did not go back to Catholic. I just did not go to church in five years. I live away from my parents. No guidance, i can do what i want. I was 25 when i started working in Toyota. Im longing for a church then. When Jade introduced to me, I immediately asked his friend what is his religion. Jade invited me to go to their church. My first attendance in Calauan Baptist church was Dec. 28, 2008. That was their year end fellowship. Somebody talked to me and shared about Romans road. I follow her in prayer then after the prayer she told me that Im saved and i will go 100% to heaven when i die. Jade asked me, how did you received Christ as personal Savior? I asked myself, How? (Pano nga ba) Im doubtful. We are required to go soul winning. It's very hard for me to share because in the state in questioning myself. The preaching topics is always how to win souls, reading the Bible, tithes and offering. I continue go to church until Jade and I got married. Since Calauan is quite far from our work we started to find churches nearby. We went to severAl chruches. Until Tita Dolce called Jade and invited to us go to Dita. We are expecting big building and many people. And we're surprised. It was an apartment and only few are attendees. That was July 2012 when i was pregnant with Aljay. We go home with question mark in our head. There is something in that church. We went on and off to Liberty. Before Pastor Larry left for Camp Liberty 2015 he talked to us. He said we should decide if we stay in Liberty or not. We decided to be in Liberty Baptist Church and Jade got saved. Im always distracted and cannot focus listening since I have my little ones. Most of the times i dont i understand the preaching. But God is good to me. When Kuya Emerson preach about the desire the know God, i started to desire. I started to listen carefully.

Camp 2016, Pastor Larry said we have to submit a report of what had God told us during the camp. This was my report: 
God   touched me in the song God's been good. 

Lately I've been looking back, along this winding road 
To the old familiar markers of the mercies I have known 
I know it may sound simple but it's more than a cliche 
There's no better way to tell you, than to say 

God's been good in my life 
I feel blessed beyond my wildest dreams when I go to sleep each night 
And though I've had my share of hard times, I wouldn't change them if I could 
'Cause through it all, God's been good 

Times replay and I can see that I've cried some bitter tears 
But I felt His arms around me, as I faced my greatest fears 
You see I've had more gains than losses and I've known more joy than hurt 
As His grace rolled down upon me undeserved 

This song was sang my Ms. Rachel before Pastor Claude's preaching. Truly God's been good in my life. This song is so meaningful to me. God's touched my heart thru this song. I felt His arms around me and His grace rolled down upon me. I continue to listen until camp is over. 
Im expecting that Pastor Larry will talk to me. But he did not. I said ok God i'll just wait. 

When Pastor Terry and Pastor Claude came, everybody was excited. Sunday evening, God talked to me thru Pastor Claude's preaching about the story of Mephibosheth.And i see myself a LAME (unable to walk because of the illness of sins), separated and no pasture. God told me the reason why im not able to move on because of sin. I cried and asked God to help me. The preaching is over. For the first time 'nabitin ako sa preaching'(i dont know the exact english). i went home heavy hearted.  I just thought there are still many preachings along the way. 

Monday night, Pastor Terry preached about the good report. God nailed on the cross to save like me. God took my place in the cross. Thank you God. Pastor Larry to prepare for tomorrow's service. I prayed, this is it Lord please help me. 

Tuesday evening, Pastor Larry read from the scripture Roman 10:13 For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved

I sobbed and ask for forgiveness to God. I said, Im sorry Lord Im sorry Lord, please help me, have mercy on me. Then God appeared to me. He took my hand and said "come child its enough, stand up from being lame". I trembled and cried. 
 
I thought i got saved this time. Im so excited to write down my testimony. I've waited for the result (as if i took an exam😊). I checked group me from time to time. I expected that Pastor Larry will announce my name. Then Pastor Larry told Ate Alona in group me that she has to announce the goods news. The whole church rejoices because Adriane got saved. Im still hoping that Pastor Larry will announce my name. Then, Chloe got save. Again the church rejoices. Im still hoping until Pastor Larry talked to me, i have to revised my testimony. He told me that i have to explain the last part of my testimony. I revised it then I sent it to Pastor Larry. Then, Phoebe got saved. I told myself, i'll be the next. I keep my internet on, even in work so that if ever Pastor Larry announces my name, i will be updated. But Pastor Larry talked to me, that my testimony is lacking. He told me that God just talked to me, not saving me. He told me that i still have chances, just wait. He told me that God loves me. I cried and feel disappointed that time. I thought i did my best to be saved. I ignore all the messages in group me. I feel hurt and jealous for Adriane, Chloe and Phoebe. I thought Liberty is working on them to be saved. How about me? I feel that no one is caring. But when the Liberty ladies took the responsibily of taking good care of Zion during services, i feel the love. Thank you ladies. I continue to listen to preachings. Until Pastor Greg and Sister Jannet comes to the Philippines.
Oct 16 Sunday service, in the morning Pastor Greg preach remembering the goodness of God. Even im lost, i have many things to be thank for. That im nothing to God, i owe my life to Him. 
Sunday evening service Pastor Greg, preach about why God created Liberty. The verse was 43:1 But now thus saith the LORD that created thee, O Jacob, and he that formed thee, O Israel, Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine. 
I prayed and said to God i want to be a part of Liberty. I want to be a lively stone. A peculiar person. I want to partake the royal priesthood, sacrifice of praise, sacrifice of joy, sacrifice of broken spirit and sacrifice of doing good. It hurts me knowing that Liberty is the people for God and i dont belong in Liberty. I have a heavy heart i really want to be saved.  
Oct. 17 Monday evening
Pastor Greg preached about giving thanks to Lord. Psalm 107 :1. O give thanks unto the LORD, for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever. 
Everything is of God and i must be thankful. Im ashamed of God because im not thankful for everything happen in my life. Im cant say the words 'thank you' in a loud voice. Im so afraid in saying it loud because im not worhty. 
Oct. 18 Tuesday evening 
I was not able to attend the service. Were not allowed to go out in office after 6pm.& I really want to go to church. Im worried because if our boss will not allowing me to go out in the office after 6pm until friday. But God moves, my boss ask from production people to help me. I got help by 4people from production and 3people from our department. Im able to attend church everyday. 
Oct. 19 Wednesday evening
Pastor Greg preached God is Love. 1John 4:7-12 God loves me despite that im a sinner. God's love is comitted not conditional. God's love is unconditional. 
Oct. 20 Thurday evening 
Pastor Greg preach about salvation Ephesians 2:1-8

1. And you hath he quickened, who were dead in trespasses and sins; 2. Wherein in time past ye walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that now worketh in the children of disobedience: 3. Among whom also we all had our conversation in times past in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind; and were by nature the children of wrath, even as others. 

 4. But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us, 5. Even when we were dead in sins, hath quickened us together with Christ, (by grace ye are saved;) 6. And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus: 7. That in the ages to come he might shew the exceeding riches of his grace in his kindness toward us through Christ Jesus. 8. For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: 

I listen every single word. Salvation is deliverance  of sin and restoration of relationship to God. That can be obtain through faith. It is a gift from God. I cant understand my feelings. I really want to be saved.

Oct 21 

Im restless in the office. I cant understand my feelings. Before the preaching, i told God that i will not ask questions anymore, just do what He want for me. I trust Him.

 Then that evening Pastor Greg preached Luke 14:15. And when one of them that sat at meat with him heard these things, he said unto him, Blessed is he that shall eat bread in the kingdom of God. God invited me in His supper to eat His bread. It was clearly said, come to my table and eat my bread, rest and have peace. I ran to the altar and sit with God. Thank you for you mercy God. I love you too God.